"I'm a religious man, Walda! I'm a god-damn religious man.
I'm not sure what you expected of me, but it's pretty clear now that I can't deliver.
I'm not ashamed, either. Shame is worthless because it is human. Shame from God. Awe. That is true.
And if you cannot accept me, I will accept that but I will not accept it happily! I am a religious man! And I will not be silenced by you - in jest or in shame. I will hold my head high and pray and thank God for sending such a breathtaking test of my devotion. I will thank Him for not letting that waver.
Sure, I may cower in the corner and fight violently with my faith, but I will wrestle. Damn will I wrestle! I will not give in so easily, wander. I must wrestle with God. For you even if you do not care. Even when I lose to Him decisively and embarrassingly, I must do so. I must wrestle in front of all despite their apathy.
It is the only thing we were meant to do."
I'm not sure what you expected of me, but it's pretty clear now that I can't deliver.
I'm not ashamed, either. Shame is worthless because it is human. Shame from God. Awe. That is true.
And if you cannot accept me, I will accept that but I will not accept it happily! I am a religious man! And I will not be silenced by you - in jest or in shame. I will hold my head high and pray and thank God for sending such a breathtaking test of my devotion. I will thank Him for not letting that waver.
Sure, I may cower in the corner and fight violently with my faith, but I will wrestle. Damn will I wrestle! I will not give in so easily, wander. I must wrestle with God. For you even if you do not care. Even when I lose to Him decisively and embarrassingly, I must do so. I must wrestle in front of all despite their apathy.
It is the only thing we were meant to do."
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